dilemma...

it's been quite rarely i'm updating this blog.. i've got tones of feeling to pour out right now,,, it's just that when i start opening my blog, it dissapear out of my mind.. dunno why..

here it is!! the biggest dillema that i ever had.. i'm stuck in the middle! what i am wanna be?? a doctor?? or a lawyer??? i love both this work.. i'm sorely enthusiast with these jobs.. but still, i didn't make the final decision.. one problem of mine is that, i'm the type of person who is easily being influenced by others, not the type of person that 'tetap pendirian'..

i have been go to the hospitl for 3 days.. we've been exposed with the real life, the reality of being a doctor.. i have seen the real corpse, live operation, biopsy and all that patient.. all that doctor.. it's a really interesting exposing actually.. but, ill be plain with u.. this exposing really2 make me think ' can i be a doctor?'.. u know,, being a doctor was such a buzy.. you've got no life, no friends, and of course no enjoying moments.. most of the doctor there advised us to try another job.. NOT DOCTOR!! the even forgot their sleep time.. especially for those who is still in housemanship.. their routine day was so buzy.. well actually this is due to the lackness of doctor today.. im afraid that if i become a doctor one day, i'll neglect my family.. i don't want to be irresponsible person of course.. especially towards my own family..

so i was thinking to be a lawyer.. my second ambition.. but i dunno lah.. don't ever think that lawyer is an easy job.. every job has it's own challenge..
which want i really wants to..

a phone call....

i was engrossed watching the television with my brother till then my mother's phone rang... it's my aunt calling from kk said that my other aunt is in hospital now.. in ICU.. hmmm sound serious.. so, my brother, my mother and i quickly dash out into the hospital. we had to walk along 200 meter before we arrive at the wad. My legs are hurting so much since i'm using high heels which i'm still not getting used to it. unfortunately, they want to take a stairs rather than using lif.. aarrgghh.. it's only adding my pain..

when we arrive at the 2nd floor, we almost get lost to find the room. i can see that there's a group, an old women group wearing white baju kurung.. all of them.. they were looking for my aunt's room too.. we're looking up and down and finally,, we found the room.. there's a big text on the wall near the door "HIGH DEPENDENCY UNIT"..

my mother and i waiting for our turn to get in the room since the nurse only allow 2 visitors at one time. but i,, i was trying to stand the pain.. not my leg.. but it's stomach-ache right now.. it's getting pain and pain and suffer me a lot..

i went to the room and i can saw that there's so many tube and all that machine. my aunt was the only patient there.. i was hoping that she will get well soon..

16 march 2010...

finally.. !! i have a followers.. thanks a lot nor hafizah.. sorry if there's a typing error about your name.. i thought that no one would ever follow my blog.. perhaps some of you think that what's the big deal about that?? but do i care what's your opinion?? nope!!! coz this is my blog.. not your blog!!

right now it's 5 pm.. life is so boring.. i don't have anything to do except on9.. my brother went to somewhere, small river at Merotai, hang out with his best fren and fishing.. i help to prepared his cater with fried chicken.. he was so happy.. i'm happy too...

Actually now, i am in dilemma.. should i study overseas or juzt in locals?? which one is better you think?? please help me.. i'm already apply for JPA scholarship.. hoping that i will got it.. but, deep in my heart, i don't think i really wants it badly.. oh God.. help me..

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